Closed Casket shoot day 1

Tomorrow starts the first day of what I am calling Hell Month. 5 Shorts in 1 month. The night that I try to sleep, and of course no results. Taking it one day at a time is the only sane way to do this. But my head just isn't in the right place. Theres one thing that lingers in my head, keeping me from my fucking dreams. I'm too stubborn to give it up.

There's this daydream I keep having..

Is there such a thing as a daymare? I guess some people would call ita panic attack.. Today I was asked through my formspring if I was racist.. I replied with "of course not! I hate everyone equally"

... its the end of the world dream that i've had before.. I blogged about it before too. it ends with a familiar looking girl in my past, putting two shotgun shells in her mouth, abd biting down on the percussion caps.. thus blowing her own brains out... weird... im sure its nothing.

"I've got a secret! Its on the tip of my tongue, its on the back of my lungs, and I'm gonna keep it! I know something you don't know!" -Bring Me The Horizon

ive been trying to write new songs... i have some great chord ideas but nothing seems to be coming together..

someone asked me on formspring this question: Whats your type?

and this is honestly the way i can answer:

Someone that can forgive my dumbass jokes and my fucked up sense of humor... someone that understands my demanding work schedule and my ridiculous career choice... someone that would just fucking trust me. someone that would let me be there for them... oh, and she has to look better than my fugly ass

Julius Ceasar

Easter vlog

I don't care

Its honestly what i think.

Do you think a Zebra is black with white stripes, or white with black stripes? Cause if you're a zebra and I can't figure you out. A paper tiger or a trojan horse? Blessing in disguise or does the devil wear Prada? This is bullshit. But luckily my friend Adam gave me some really good advice: Act like you don't care, and the trick is, don't really care.

4:00, wide awake

Yup, its the usual sleepless night. I haven't been writing in this blog for a while. I've actually had the pleasure of having a few good nights sleep. Right now its the beginning of spring break. That means that we have five weeks to get all of our films done. This is the calm before the storm. I feel as ready as I've ever been. I'm excited and I'm scared.... Lets see, what else has been going on? hmm.... I just started season 3 of Supernatural. I cant believe that I never got into this show before. This show is so graphic, I kinda don't believe that some of these episodes were on Tv.

Crazy thing happened to me today.. I went running with my friend Jamiel and a fucking bug flew into my mouth and I swallowed it. It had a bit of mass so it couldn't have been a mosquito. And it was definitely bigger than a ladybug.. That thing better have died in my stomach.. I don't want a fucking alien popping out of my chest while I'm eating dinner with my friends.

Watching Supernatural

So I finally go t into this show.. it took me a couple of years but I just started season 2 today... I feel a lot better about some things... Tomorrow we'll be finishing auditions for our films.. lets hope they will be better than on monday. I'm feeling sleepy. But I want to try and edit a little tonight.