Breakfast at Tiff's (OUTRO)

This is the outro to the cd. Not really an album but just a random collection of songs.

5am

It is 5am and I am still tracking Seth's vocals for a new song. Damn. I have had like 4 cups of some dark roast already. I've started speaking in a british accent so I hope thats hop you're hearing this blog play out in your head.. No joke this is a badass song. I used a sample from Gone With The Wind to make this track sound so sick. I'm getting tired of hearing this shit over and over and over and over and over. and over and over again. Fuck man. I think I'm going crazy. I still have 8 more scenes to edit by tomorrow. Piece of cake, I just hate editing for that class.

Had some weird and some bullshit today. wtf. jumper cables. Clamshell-like mouths. Guys with babies. Camera movements. Plug and plays. Chords and lyrics. I don't even know what I'm talking about anymore. I feel like Jack Torrance from The Shining right about now. Writing aimlessly at a keyboard. and u think I wanna kil someoneU cant ewven tell what um writin g about anymore

rapture and raptors

I kinda wish they misspelled it and they really meant to say the Raptors are coming. The darker, cynical side of me is begging for the fucking world to end. There is no god damn point to this bullshit. But in all seriousness, I'm not even phased by this while thing. I find it extremely hilarious how people are acting. People are tripping balls, getting drunk and wasted. There is a tiny little hint of a speck of me that second guesses it tho. Like, really... What if something does happen? If so, it would make me sad that I'd be spending it alone. Then I get that mental kick in my brain that puts the hammer down on those silly notions.

Hmm. Its about 4:30 as I'm writing this. Honestly, I'm starting to question continuing this blog. I already wrote, and posted a blog once before stating that this would be my last entry. But like the flip of a coin my mind changed. I don't really have anything to write about... or better yet, I don't really have the motivation to write in it. Other than my work. I kinda feel like nothing really matters anymore. Thats how I'm going to try to live my life. I am a goddamn workaholic. I've always known that. I hate having nothing to do. I prefer textbooks over novels. I like working 12 hour days on film sets. My only goal right now is to get a job working on a primetime show for a major network either in Studio city or in Vancouver. I have a passion, and I guess a dream. I have goals and possibly a future. I'm not gonna be stuck in the bay area making bullshit films. I take my shit seriously.

I know I'm going to rant again about the serious lack of seriousness in the filmmakers in my immediate area. I feel so embarrassed for them. All I want to know is if they are serious about what they want to do. If not, then its whatever, I won't even think twice about them. But if they are... then what the hell. I don't believe that the filmmakers in this area should all get along and help each other out and help each other grow. I won't let anyone take an opportunity out of my hands for the sake of teamwork.

I'm adopting a serious no bullshit mantra. seriously, film is the only thing I'm good at, so I know what the fuck I'm talking about. I got hit with reality about quality. My friend Adam gave it to me straight about how our work kinda sucks. Then again, he helped write most of that shit. So keeping with the times. I'm discarding all my old equipment. Actors are no different. I'm only into doing good shit now. And I'm getting a lot of opportunities to work on more professional sets. I'm gaining valuable experience and I won't share one bit of it.

These are the things that spew from being awake at pretty much 5am. I'd write more but I really have to pee and then get back to editing. And I hate editing.

And to whoever reads my blog and has read this far... Thanks.

what the hell.....

So me and a few of my film colleagues are now the in house film crew for a company named Movizine. Their office is in downtown fairfield inside of an old bank. its getting renovated and I gotta say it looks pretty good. We still have to work out the kinks with the owner on exactly how much we're getting paid to do pretty much any video type work. but it looks like I can add another avenue to my revenue stream. Dude.. I just noticed.. I'm really starting to make bank.

updates

a lot of big things are coming around.

Looks like I'm heading to LA on tuesday. But as per arrangement, I'm not supposed to talk about it. I hate the industry for its secrecy haha.

emailed Nina Henninger, CSA about possibly working at her casting agency. Hopefully theres something in the works for that. Casting isn't my favorite aspect of the game, but it sure is damn interesting.

Checking in with that Santa's Dog film. Sounds wacky I know but I'm just trying to get on some bigger projects in the area.

I'm lining up tons of artists in the area that are looking to get some stuff done with us. Its starting gain some momentum. I just figure if I work hard enough. I'll be able to grab at least one out of every ten things I set out for.

if life is productivity, and productivity is good.. then is life good? I'm starting to think so.

chang's deleted blog post

CLICK TO ENLARGE.. Pun intended.

Chang tried to start a tumblr. posted this and then changed his mind. So if anyone has missed it. Enjoy.

whaaaa

So i finally showed my friend Luis some of the music I've been making. He told me he like it but I just have to work on my melody cause i sound like im not sure about some of my lines when i sing them... hmm I'll keep that in mind.

But now he wants me to do some shows with him. And I'm like What the Fuck? I aint no musician. I'm down to try it tho. So I guess when we go up to Oregon to shoot that music video for Great Horned Owl, Luis is gonna roll with us. He's gonna book us some show up in oregon and in washington. some acoustic shows i guess cause all three of us really play acoustic. This might be happening in July. What the hell. Damn I have to start practicing. I'm starting to get burnt out on music at the moment.

I feel like watching a movie right now. I gotta get my equipment ready for tomorrow..