Anyways...

I wanna start posting more of my thoughts on film and working in it. Working with actors is one of the things that I'm always on the fence about. At my job I work with a lot of people just breaking into the acting game. Its sometime deterring to work with them cause I feel that half of them don't really want to be there.

but anyways, I always get off track.

Working in depth with actors to prepare for complex roles is a necessary thing. I'm all for letting an actor work with a role and become the role. I have complete respect for the craft and the process. But they still need a starting point. I'll tell them what to think, and how to think it. Suggestions are always welcome and dialogue is very flexible. Without going cheesy on the subject but I'm gonna use that old actor=canvas and I'm holding the brush analogy.

Jokingly I told my friend Cecilia that the secret to directing is to watch the rehearsal of a scene, then tell the actors to either do it again exactly the same, or tell them to do it differently. In a sense thats really all there is to it.

We interrupt our normal broadcasting.....

May 21st - Dr. Prasad - 11:30am - Vacaville

(some kind of appt to see if I have glaucoma cause the pressure in my eyes don't seem to be going down)

May 27th - Dr. Diamont - 9:10am - Vacaville

(Lens replacement/cataract surgery and removal of scar tissue on tear duct/repair - right eye only)

May 28th - Dr. Diamont - 9:10am - Vacaville

(post surgery checkup)

June 2nd - Dr. Diamont - 4:30pm - Vacaville

(post surgery checkup)

June 23rd - Dr. Diamont - 3:50 - Vacaville

(left eye operation.. I think)

I got a busy schedule ahead of me. I've been ok for now. I'm treating this like a routine business meeting. So I don't get all freaked out. The cataract surgery is technically a routine procedure, but the repairing of my tear ducts it the thing I'm a little worried about... Actually I'm less worried about the surgery than I am about the medication I've been taking. Upon agreeing to taking the meds, the doc let me know about the possible side effects. I run the risk of some serious health issues in the long run.. I'm gonna be so pissed if ten years from now I get lymph node cancer. I'm knocking on the biggest and woodiest piece of wood I could find right now.

Sunday May 16th 2010, 2:45am

I'm listening to Gregory and The Hawk. Awesome band. So I finally watched Julius Ceasar on its closing night. Funny thing that they told me after the show was that, during the scene in which Brutus and Cassius (played by Stew and Lyndsay) drank some wine, the crew actually replaced the usual iced tea with hard liquor. I talked to Stew and Lyndsay after and they said that they had the hardest time trying not to break character. Everyone including them thought that was funny as fuck (their words not mine.. this time).

I noticed recently that my typing skills have gotten really better. I mean, I've been typing since a kid, but now after all these years, I finally feel comfortable typing without looking at my hands too much. I guess all that screenwriting is starting to pay off.

So with The Kitchen Sink, this little music project that me and Seth started a while ago..Our recordings of our songs seem to keep getting better. I really love playing music and I feel that this could get some real attention. Cause I play the guitar like I'm ringing a bell. (Johhny B Goode) and Seth has got lyrics thats epicness rivals the bible.

I went to a party today and saw some friends that I haven't seen in a long time. We all pretty much grew up together. And they've been together since 2001 or something. To see them nowadays and they're still just as young and in love as they were when they first got together. I think thats amazing and a truly rare feat. I wish I could tell them that when I think of relationships, I wish I could have had something like that. And I honestly believe that if two people like that couldn't last forever, how the hell could I? I guess I'll say that at their wedding.

Breaking Bad

is such an awesome show. I started following it during the middle of their second season. I'm actually going back and watching it from the beginning.

The show stars Emmy award winner Bryan Cranston. Most people will know him as the dad from Malcolm in the Middle. This guy is amazing. Like seriously, IMO one of the top actors right now. But yeah, this show is about this high school chemistry teacher names Walter White and just got diagnosed with lung cancer. He decides , with the help of his former student/meth head/drug dealer that he's gonna start cooking meth in rolling lab (winnebago) to make money for his family for when he's dad.

seriously, what a fucking premise.

There needs to be more hours in the day....

Wow did that just happen?

anyways, i just spent the whole day sleeping. That felt really good. I havent slept like that in quite a bit. Now what am I to do now that I'm awake and my batteries are fully charged? I think I'll clean the office. (i know I always say that) I started writing the new script for the boss. Its coming along swimmingly.

Oh and I can cross off a NYR (newyearsresolution).. The other day in class I started an applaud for no reason. I just started clapping and people followed. Hhaha ahaha.

tomorrow night is the last night to see Julius Ceasar, directed by my friend Angelina Labarre. Ive done the BTS vlogs for it, but have never seent the play past the first act. I think I'l check it out.

Now that this is done

Whats new? Well, I am yet again at the end of another semester. I'd say it went fairly well. It may seem that I've been going crazy these past couple of weeks but I really haven't. The last couple of posts were just me getting out my frustrations.. I'd rather type this out than snapping at someone.

So I'm at another fork in the road. Currently I have my two main options going for me. Film school or University. going to film school will let me work on projects, music, and trying to get another job. and going the university route means summer school and 15 units in the fall semester.... trying the film school means I have to quit my job at scc. (which I wouldnt mind cause I've pretty much had all I cant take of it).

I really want to go to Berkeley Digital. They got the RED cam. I think I can hang with them. I feel pretty confident with my skills right now. But damn that place is expensive.

AAHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

I hate this movie so much.. I hate everything about it.fuck this movie. Fuck this story, the actors, the shots, the sound.. everything.

Its almost done and im a little scared that people will agree with me.