Its been a bit

Its not that I havent been trying. Ive been so busy working the pre production for Hetero Sapien that I forgot about this blog for a bit. Its so hectic. I'm looking at a 10-15 thousand dollar budget on my hands now. I'm gonna get this money.

Whats new with me you ask? Work started at school and Dyan Mcbride is teaching my class now. She's really fun and I'm learning a lot. I'm teaching the class solo this wednesday and the wednesday next.

plus I'm in a new relationship. yeah thats a big one. She's awesome and she thinks I'm awesome. We're pretty awesome I guess...

and how are you?

You know that saying; You're life flashes before your eyes? When i got into a car crash today, I didnt see shit.

For Lexi

lets start this party with a bang

i want to hear you scream my name

this is the last chance you will get

before this world will end

enjoy the sky before it falls

enjoy the wind before it calls

the sea to open up

and swallow all of us

Lets end this party with a bang

we put our ancestors to shame

we destroyed our planeet

destroyed our existence

this disaster is the end

of a race that should have never been

destined to fail from the start

now watch us fall apart.

cause its the end of the world

lets make this count

the party that will be the death of us

so drink up and have all the sex you can

and do all the things you want

maybe, just maybe that one day i'll pray for god to save us all

when the sky goes black, and the oceans gone up in flames

ill get on my knees and say,

were we not worth it?

were we not worth saving?

I guess not

I walked into my house today and my mother stops her conversation with my father, looks at me and says, " You know, I wonder what you do in there. Do you get anything out of it?" I didn't have a chance to reply because she went to her conversation with my father. I didn't have an answer for her except that I couldn't say, "Yes."

I'd like to thank my mother for one day I will prove her wrong. The things she says sometimes hurt harder and last longer than any other pain I've experienced in my life. My patience, understanding, and moral views have all stemmed from being able to survive what she put me through. Its true about that old saying; She wasn't the best mother, but she was mine. I wouldn't trade her for anything. She's my perfect gatekeeper.

Hetero Sapien

Hey so we started the blogspot for our next film Hetero Sapien. Go to Heterosapienfilm.blogspot.com

theres nothing on it yet but expect to see some crazy stuff.

Shame short film

I was looking at my old youtube account and found this in my favorites tab. Without realizing it I took the picture above. And I guess in my unconscious mind this was the inspiration that made me pose that way. idk its a damn good short.

The emotional shift of 2010

Of the few friends that I have had the greatest of pleasure to have worked with. I've found that we go through emotional trends as a group. The first time it happened was last year where for some reason we were all in an emotional slump and we took out frustrations out on the films we made. We burnt out and ended the film binge with four guys in san francisco, at the beach, on a cliffside and screaming our lungs out at the never ending oceanic horizon. A year later and another shift is happening. Its like we emotionally trade places. When I was moping around when whatsherface cheated/left me all the other guys were getting tired of it. Now they're saying things like "Man, now i know exactly how he felt.".. And as with me, I'm finally starting to enjoy the single life. It will have been a year in two days. But just like how its written in the plotlines of countless shows and films: When you don't want it, it shows up. Thats the conflict of reality. I'm not looking for any kind of relationship and I finally have a workflow going that is too good to be true. But for some strange reason there are people out there that I meet and I'm like damn, shes really cool.. and thats the dilemma. and the time I had a gf and I had to cut that off, yeah one of our guys is feeling that way too. Oh and a baby was born! we're totally gonna put that baby in our films.