Thanks

I went to lunch today with my boss up in downtown Suisun. I had a avocado burger. After hanging around for a bit I noticed that I didn't have my phone on me. I thought I had left it in the classroom in the main campus but I knew I had it with me on the drive over. I seriously thought I lost it. While driving back home I noticed a small black brick stuck to my windshield. Sure enough it was my phone underneath my windshield wiper. I pulled off an a cool little action scene by rolling down my window and grabbing it while driving. Thank you kind stranger for not taking my phone. seriously. thanks.

focus

stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. forget? stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading. stay busy, keep moving, sleep, sleep. stop reading.

Lather, rinse, and repeat.

I'm in full blown panic attack. fucking anxiety for some odd reason. I am so damn tired from filming today. I went down to Berkeley to continue shooting a short thats like 60 percent shot. Then I had to from Berkeley, through Walnut Creek, to Pleasant Hill.. or pretty much Concord to pick up an actor. This guy was fucking weird.. he was a cool dude. Just fucking weird. He asked where we were going and I told him that it was to this bar in Concord up on Monument Blvd. He said " is this bar next to a 7/11? cause thats a gay bar." and in my head I'm like WHAT THE FUCK HAVE I JUST LET INTO MY CAR? haha. We get there and we're waiting for the rest of the crew to arrive and he start ordering drinks. Jack and Coke I believe. We film a car bashing scene and that was cool and of course, of all things, the filmmaker's life blood, we get fed pizza. I am so over eating pizza on sets. damn.

Anyways.

Its nothing but projects from now on. The way I feel right now.. I am screwed. I never like to write about really personal things as much on this blog but every once in a while I slip up. I don't care who reads this fucking thing. I'm just really tired. And When I say tired, I mean like physically tired. Its 3:58 on my clock. Fucking 3:58. holy shit. What the hell am I doing up? What am I doing?What the hell am I doing?

I feel like I just woke up from the most perfect dream. The best 9 month long dream I've ever had. I'm wide awake. And all I wanna do is hit the snooze button. And its fucking jarring.

back to bidness I guess.